Attitude

Ones inner turmoil
Ineffectual self worth
Optimistic mood

a Japanese poem of seventeen syllables, in three lines of five, seven, and five, traditionally evoking images of the natural world
• an English imitation of this.

Why has my life turned so negative, when I use to be such a positive person
Is the thought of losing one more love more than I can imagine
Or, is it I just can't or won't let myself endure one more failed attempt at love
Was our love so deep I can't see past it
Or, is it me without love I can't see
Did I love you more than I love myself, by putting you on a silver platter so you would always shine in my eyes
Now that the silver has tarnish, why do I feel that my life, no longer has its luster
Was this the first love I've lost
Or, was it the first love I fought to keep, but you didn't see enough in me, for you to want to keep me
They say all wounds heal with time, but what if the wound penetrated one's soul
Can you tell me that time will heal it
Or, doesn't anybody really know
I looked up at the heavens, looking at the farthest star, and my mind weeps in agony, as I think about my next love might be as far away as that star
But some say, true love is just around the corner, if you stop letting the loneliness blind your inner worth
How can I find love, when I no longer love myself
I sat down and wrote a poem, to express how I felt all alone
But even when I wrote down all the right answers to my dilemma, my mind is so hell bent to make me feel this loneliness, that I couldn't see the answers sitting right there in front of me
I just need to let go and not let my mind surrender, to all of the thoughts of my painful past
Loneliness is like a expensive wine, it will seduce your mind, body, and soul with time
It's best if I let all these feelings depart from within my mind, so as a person I can grow
How can I find happiness..
If I refuse to let go of the loneliness...

9/17/07

Sometimes I stand and stare in the mirror and I see a wonderful person,
a true friend, a kind person, a nice looking person
But on other days I see the other side of me
It's not cute, nor adorable, just a plain looking person, with a not so attracted attitude
But, am I really mean, or is it on those days I just want to be alone, and by pushing everything and everybody away from me, is the only way I can get the freedom I need
The room my mind need to expand its horizons, the room my body need to stretch so it too can grow
I'm just misunderstood, because I don’t even understand myself at times
I don't understand society, and society doesn't understand me
I don't know why I say or do the things I do, I just know that I do them, and regret it later
Maybe I ask too much of myself, maybe I should enjoy being the person I am, and stop wanting to be the person I am not, I just should just except myself, for who I am
That way, at least I will understand me, if no one else does
Sometimes it's best to be by yourself in deep thoughts, soaking in the silence of night, while looking at the moon and stars, letting them set the tone of my mood
But then there's the other times, where I wish to have someone who truly loves me by my side, soaking up their essence, while their love seeps inside me
I shouldn't feel bad being a confused person, after all, this is a confusing world we live in


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This is a Picture Poem. This poem was written after viewing the Picture. Thank you Cracker for showing this picture on your Blog...



Calm, is the wind
The morning sun has relinquished its space to the moonlight
The moon drops by to say hello as it soaks in the cool, dark, blue water of the sea
I lie on my cot looking at the stars and visualize your lovely face, painted in the sky
Everything here reminds me of you
The tranquility of the waves, is the same tranquility, you put into my soul
The peaceful rocking of the boat, seems to rock in time, with the peace, you have put in my heart
The twinkling of the stars is no match for the twinkle in your eyes, especially after we have engaged in our passionate, game of love
Being out here I feel like I'm inside a floating sanctuary, just like I feel, when I'm floating deep inside of you
When the calm wind ease pass my skin, it reminds me of your light feathery touch, and the calm of inner peace, you bring to me
The dark glistering sky is nothing more, than a replica of the color of your dark silky hair
The damp air reminds me of the cool damp breaths, you gently blow across my flesh, after your tongue has tested and tasted my skin texture, and of its flavor
Even when I glide my hand over the water top, I think of you
I think of the smoothness of your soft skin, the feel of your loving sweat, as you lay breathless, next to me
I know now why, I so love, being out to sea
Because it's nothing but a perfect reflection, of the love of you, you have put inside of me.

Warm air fills the room
But my body feels cold and empty inside
Cold without your warming love
Cold without hope
Cold without your contiguous
Empty without our dreams
The cold facts that you left me
Has put my mind into a philosophical demeanor
That has turned into despair
I seek the comfort of solitude
The sun shines, I don't see it
Its warm rays, I don't feel it
I walk in the woods blind, seeking solitude
Hearing
Noticing
Touching nothing in my path
I walk without your love
I walk without the comfort you gave me
I walk a lonesome stroll of despair
While my mind seeks solitude
A weeping willow tree blocks my path
It seems to reflect the person I have become
Weak bodied and fragile looking
As it leans with every slight breeze
Its limbs hang as if the weight of the world is on them
I sit down next to it as a reflection of comfort
A bird lands on a tree nearby
But I can't identify it because my vision is blurred
I close my eyes so they can rid themselves of their dampness
Now in solitude, I weep not alone